Chapter 43
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I stared at the check in Mrs. Park's hand, the numbers blurring together.
Five hundred thousand dollars.
More money than I'd see in five years of running my catering business. Maybe ten years. Enough to pay off every debt, buy new equipment, lease a proper commercial kitchen instead of renting space by the hour at St. Augustine's community center.
Enough to disappear.
"Take it," Mrs. Park said. Her voice had gone soft, almost gentle. The shift was more terrifying than her anger. "Take the money and leave tonight. I'll tell immigration you had a family emergency. Daniel will say you abandoned him. The marriage will be annulled, and you'll be free to go back to China with enough money to start over properly."
"She's not going anywhere." Daniel's hand found mine, his fingers threading through mine with a certainty that made my chest ache.
I pulled away.
His hand hung in the air between us for a second before he lowered it.
"Nora—"
"Maybe she's right." The words scraped out of my throat. "Maybe I have been using you. You paid my rent. You paid my suppliers. You bought me a new oven when mine broke. What have I given you except problems?"
"That's not—"
"What did you get out of this arrangement, Daniel? Really?" I turned to face him fully, and the hurt in his eyes made me want to take it all back. But I couldn't. Not when his mother was standing there with a check that proved exactly how much of a liability I was. "A green card marriage is supposed to be transactional. I get legal status, you get... what? The satisfaction of fixing someone?"
His face hardened. "Is that what you think this is?"
"I don't know what this is anymore."
Mrs. Park made a small sound of satisfaction. She set the check on the coffee table between us, the paper crisp and white against the dark wood. "I'm not trying to be cruel, Nora. I'm trying to save my son from making a mistake that will follow him for the rest of his life. Immigration fraud is a federal crime. If they discover the truth—"
"They won't," Daniel said.
"Richard has evidence. Photographs. Testimony from your doorman that you barely spent any time together before the wedding. Bank records showing Daniel paying your bills." She looked at me, and for a moment I saw something almost like pity in her eyes. "They'll interview you tomorrow. They'll ask questions about his daily routine, his favorite foods, what side of the bed he sleeps on. Can you answer those questions, Nora?"
I could. That was the problem.
I knew Daniel took his coffee black with exactly one sugar cube, not a packet but a cube, because his grandmother had always served it that way. I knew he slept on the left side of the bed, closest to the door, a habit from childhood when he'd appointed himself his younger sister's protector. I knew he had a scar on his right knee from falling off his bike at eight years old, and that he still had nightmares about the day his father died.
I knew too much. Felt too much.
"I can answer their questions," I said quietly.
"Because you've rehearsed?" Mrs. Park asked. "Or because you've actually built a life together?"
The question hung in the air like smoke.
Daniel moved closer, not touching me but close enough that I could feel the heat of him. "We should go."
"Running away won't solve this," his mother said.
"Neither will staying here and letting you bully her." He picked up my coat from where I'd dropped it on the chair. "Nora. Let's just—"
"I need a minute." I walked past both of them, through the pristine living room with its museum-quality furniture and out onto the balcony. The cold November air hit my face like a slap.
Forty-three stories below, the city sprawled in every direction, lights glittering like scattered diamonds. I gripped the railing, the metal freezing against my palms.
The sliding door opened behind me.
"She's wrong about you," Daniel said.
"Is she?" I didn't turn around. "I let you pay my rent, Daniel. I let you buy me equipment. I let you solve all my problems while I just... took it. What does that make me?"
"Someone who needed help."
"Someone who used you."
"Stop." His voice went hard. "Stop letting her get in your head."
I finally turned to face him. He'd put on his coat but hadn't zipped it, and the wind whipped it open. His hair was a mess from running his hands through it. He looked exhausted.
"Did you mean it?" I asked. "What you said in there. That you love me."
His expression shuttered. "Does it matter?"
"Of course it matters."
"Why?" He stepped closer, and I could see the muscle jumping in his jaw. "If you're planning to take her money and leave anyway, why does it matter what I feel?"
"I'm not—" I stopped. Was I? The check was still sitting on that coffee table, and part of me—a small, desperate part—had already calculated how far that money would take me. "I don't know what I'm doing."
"That makes two of us."
We stood there in the cold, the wind howling around us, and I thought about all the moments that had led us here. The day he'd proposed this arrangement in my kitchen, so formal and businesslike. The night we'd practiced our story until three in the morning, laughing at how ridiculous it all sounded. The morning I'd woken up to find him making breakfast, his hair sticking up in every direction, humming off-key to some song on the radio.
The first time he'd kissed me and I'd forgotten it was supposed to be fake.
"Your mother is right about one thing," I said. "Tomorrow's interview is going to be brutal. If Richard gave them evidence, they'll be looking for any inconsistency. Any sign that we're lying."
"We'll pass."
"How can you be so sure?"
"Because—" He stopped, his hands curling into fists at his sides. "Because I can handle it."
There it was. His default response to everything. I can handle it. I can fix it. I can carry this weight alone.
"You can't handle everything, Daniel."
"Watch me."
"That's not—" I pressed my hands to my face, trying to organize my thoughts. The cold had numbed my fingers. "Okay so, let's think about this logically. Richard has evidence. Your mother knows the truth. The immigration officer is going to be suspicious. What's our play here?"
"We tell the truth."
I dropped my hands. "The truth will get us both arrested."
"Not that truth." He moved closer, close enough that I had to tilt my head back to meet his eyes. "The truth about us. About what this has become."
My heart kicked against my ribs. "What has it become?"
"You tell me." His voice had gone quiet, dangerous. "You're the one who keeps pulling away every time we get close. You're the one who keeps insisting this is just an arrangement."
"Because that's what it is."
"Is it?" He reached out slowly, giving me time to move away. When I didn't, his hand cupped my cheek, his thumb brushing across my cheekbone. "Is that why you know how I take my coffee? Why you bought me that book on Japanese architecture because you remembered me mentioning it once? Why you leave notes in my lunch box?"
I couldn't breathe. "Those are just—"
"Just what? Just you being thorough? Just you playing your part?" His other hand came up, framing my face. "I don't think so."
"Daniel—"
"I meant it," he said. "What I said in there. I love you. Not because you need saving. Not because I have some complex. I love you because you're brilliant and stubborn and you make the best kimchi jjigae I've ever tasted. I love you because you leave your socks on the bathroom floor and you sing off-key when you cook and you cry at dog food commercials. I love you because you're you, Nora. Not because of what you can give me or what I can fix for you."
The words hit like a physical force. I wanted to believe him. God, I wanted to believe him so badly it hurt.
But his mother's voice was still echoing in my head. Girls like you. Using him. Taking his money.
"I can't—" My voice broke. "I can't do this right now."
His hands dropped. "Right."
"No, I mean—" I wrapped my arms around myself. "Your mother just offered me half a million dollars to disappear. Your uncle is trying to destroy us. We have an immigration interview in twelve hours that could end with both of us in federal prison. I can't think about feelings right now. I can't—"
"When, then?" His voice was flat. "When can you think about it? After the interview? After you get your green card? After you've paid off your debts and don't need me anymore?"
"That's not fair."
"None of this is fair." He turned away, gripping the balcony railing. "I'm standing here telling you I love you, and you're treating it like another problem to solve."
"Because it is a problem!" The words burst out of me. "Don't you see that? If you love me, really love me, then this whole thing becomes real. And if it's real, then I really am using you. I really am taking advantage of your feelings to get what I need."
"That's not—"
"It is." I moved to stand beside him, both of us staring out at the city. "I needed a green card. You offered to help. If you'd been some stranger doing this for money, it would be clean. Transactional. But you're not a stranger anymore, and it's not clean, and I don't know how to—" I stopped, my throat closing up.
"How to what?"
"How to let myself want this." The admission felt like stepping off a cliff. "How to let myself want you when I know I don't deserve it."
He turned to look at me, his expression unreadable. "Who says you don't deserve it?"
"Your mother. Richard. My own brain." I laughed, but it came out bitter. "I'm in debt up to my eyeballs, Daniel. I'm one bad month away from losing everything. What do I have to offer you except problems?"
"Everything." The word was simple, absolute. "You offer me everything."
We went back inside to find Mrs. Park exactly where we'd left her, the check still on the coffee table like a test we'd already failed.
"Have you made your decision?" she asked.
I looked at the check. At Daniel. At the door that led to the elevator that led to the street that led to anywhere but here.
"I'm not taking your money," I said.
Something flickered across her face—surprise, maybe, or disappointment. "You're making a mistake."
"Probably." I picked up my purse from the chair. "But it's my mistake to make."
"And tomorrow? When immigration tears apart your story? When they discover you've been lying?"
"We'll handle it," Daniel said.
His mother's laugh was sharp. "You sound like your father. He always thought he could handle everything too. Look where that got him."
Daniel went very still beside me. "Don't."
"Don't what? Don't tell the truth? Your father thought he could handle the company expansion into China. He thought he could handle the debt. He thought he could handle the stress." Her voice cracked, just slightly. "And then one day his heart gave out in a meeting room, and I had to identify his body in a hospital morgue."
"Mom—"
"I will not watch you destroy yourself for someone who doesn't love you back." She looked at me, and her eyes were bright with unshed tears. "I'm not the villain here, Nora. I'm a mother trying to protect her son."
The words landed like a punch. Because she wasn't wrong. She was a mother protecting her child. I was just the threat she was trying to eliminate.
"I do love him," I said quietly. "I know you don't believe me. I know you think I'm just saying what you want to hear. But I love him, and I'm not going to take your money and disappear."
"Then you're a fool."
"Maybe." I held out my hand to Daniel. "Let's go."
He took it without hesitation, his fingers warm and solid around mine.
We were almost to the door when his mother spoke again. "The immigration officer's name is Sarah Chen."
I froze.
"She's been with USCIS for fifteen years. She has a ninety-three percent fraud detection rate. She's the one who caught the Kowalski ring last year—twenty-seven fraudulent marriages, all exposed in a single month." Mrs. Park's voice was calm, factual. "Richard specifically requested her for your case."
Daniel's hand tightened around mine. "How do you know that?"
"Because I called in a favor to find out who would be conducting your interview. I wanted to know what you were up against." She picked up the check, folding it carefully. "Sarah Chen doesn't just ask questions, Daniel. She investigates. She'll visit your apartment unannounced. She'll interview your neighbors, your coworkers, your friends. She'll go through your trash if she has to. And when she finds even the smallest inconsistency—and she will find one—she'll recommend prosecution."
My mouth had gone dry. "Why are you telling us this?"
"Because I want you to understand what you're choosing. This isn't a game. This isn't some romantic adventure where love conquers all. This is federal prison. This is deportation. This is the end of everything you've both worked for." She walked over to us, pressing the folded check into my hand. "Take the money, Nora. Leave tonight. Let Daniel tell them you abandoned him. He'll be angry, but he'll be safe. You'll both be safe."
I looked down at the check in my hand. The paper was warm from her touch.
"I can't," I whispered.
"Then you're condemning him." She stepped back, her face hardening. "When this falls apart—and it will fall apart—remember that I gave you a way out. Remember that you chose this."
We didn't speak in the elevator. Didn't speak in the lobby. Didn't speak as we walked out into the cold November night.
Daniel's car was parked two blocks away. We walked in silence, our breath fogging in the air between us.
"She's trying to scare you," he finally said.
"It's working."
"Nora—"
"A ninety-three percent fraud detection rate, Daniel. Ninety-three percent." I stopped walking, turning to face him. "What if she's right? What if we can't pull this off?"
"We will."
"How can you be so sure?"
"Because—" He stopped, his jaw working. "Because I have to be."
It wasn't an answer. It was a prayer.
We reached his car, a sleek black sedan that probably cost more than my entire year's revenue. He unlocked it, but neither of us moved to get in.
"I should go home," I said. "Get some sleep before tomorrow."
"You're staying at my place tonight."
"Daniel—"
"If immigration does a surprise visit, they need to find us together. In the same apartment. In the same bed." His voice was matter-of-fact, but his hands were shaking as he opened the passenger door. "Get in."
I got in.
The drive to his apartment took twenty minutes. Twenty minutes of silence broken only by the sound of traffic and the occasional siren. Twenty minutes of me staring at the check in my lap, the numbers seeming to glow in the darkness.
Five hundred thousand dollars.
Freedom.
Escape.
Betrayal.
"Stop thinking about it," Daniel said.
"I'm not—"
"You are. I can see it on your face." He turned onto his street, pulling into the underground garage. "You're calculating. Weighing options. Trying to figure out if taking the money would be the smart choice."
"And if I am?"
He killed the engine. "Then I can't stop you."
We sat there in the darkness, the only light coming from the garage's fluorescent bulbs.
"I'm scared," I finally said.
"I know."
"What if we fail tomorrow? What if she finds out the truth?"
"Then we fail." He turned to look at me, his face half in shadow. "But we fail together."
It should have been comforting. Instead, it felt like a noose tightening around both our necks.
We took the elevator up to his apartment in silence. He unlocked the door, and we stepped into the space that was supposed to be ours but had always felt more like his. Clean lines, minimal furniture, everything in its place.
Except for the kitchen.
The kitchen was chaos. My chaos. Spices lined up on the counter in no particular order. A stack of recipe cards held down by a ceramic cat I'd bought at a flea market. The lunch boxes I'd been testing, each one labeled with different menu options.
Evidence of a life being built.
Or evidence of a lie being constructed.
"I'll take the couch," I said.
"No."
"Daniel—"
"If they do a surprise visit, they need to find us in bed together. That's non-negotiable." He shrugged off his coat, hanging it in the closet with precise movements. "I'll stay on my side. You stay on yours. We've done it before."
We had. But before, I hadn't known he loved me. Before, I hadn't admitted—even to myself—that I might love him back.
"Okay," I said.
I changed in the bathroom, putting on one of his old t-shirts that I'd claimed as sleepwear weeks ago. When I came out, he was already in bed, lying on his back and staring at the ceiling.
I slid in beside him, careful to maintain the invisible line down the middle of the mattress.
"Nora?"
"Yeah?"
"Tomorrow, when they ask you why you married me—" He stopped, his throat working. "Tell them the truth."
"The truth will get us arrested."
"Not that truth. The other one." He turned his head to look at me, and in the darkness, his eyes were black. "Tell them you married me because you wanted to. Because you chose to. Because somewhere along the way, this stopped being an arrangement and became something real."
My heart was hammering so hard I was sure he could hear it. "Is that what happened?"
"You tell me."
I thought about all the moments that had led us here. The practiced smiles that had become genuine. The staged affection that had turned into something I craved. The careful distance I'd maintained that had somehow collapsed without me noticing.
"I don't know when it happened," I whispered. "But yeah. It became real."
He reached across the invisible line, his hand finding mine in the darkness. "Then that's what we tell them."
"And if they don't believe us?"
"They will."
"How can you be so—"
The sound of a key in the lock cut me off.
We both froze.
The front door opened, and footsteps echoed in the hallway. Heavy footsteps. Multiple people.
Daniel was out of bed in an instant, pulling on his pants. I scrambled up, my heart in my throat.
The bedroom door swung open.
A woman stood in the doorway, her badge catching the light from the hallway. Behind her, two more people in suits.
"Daniel Park? Nora Chen?" The woman's voice was crisp, professional. "I'm Officer Sarah Chen with U.S. Citizenship and Immigration Services. We're here to conduct a preliminary inspection of your residence. I'm going to need you both to